johnny's 17th

so, I haven't posted in some time. its mainly cause johnny & i get so busy w/ my waitress job & his dx job, & we're always hangin out w/ the gang, so......yeah. a LOT of things have happened since i last posted. 1st off, my parents are moving! they decided that they want to get out of tulsa, so they're moving to new york! this wouldn't affect me @ all, but here's the problem: even though im living w/ johnny, im still only 16, so my mom says i have 2 move 2 new york w/ them! my dad says that he's willing 2 let me stay in tulsa w/ the gang, so there's gonna be a court hearing next friday to decide whether i can stay living w/ johnny or if they have legal custody of me. so, 2nd bit of news: i now have a police record, surprise surprise. i was @ my waitress job, & i was told 2 take these guys' orders. well, i went up 2 the table & got the drink orders, but when i turned 2 leave, 1 of the guys grabbed my frickin ass & said, "why dontcha stay w/ us, baby?" oh, just 2 little things ppl never know about me: 1, i got a black-handled, 7-inch switch from two-bit after johnny & i got jumped, & its always in my back pocket, even @ work, & 2, i fight pretty good for a girl. i had that guy pinned against the wall w/ a bloody nose in about the time it takes you to blink. "touch me again & i'll have the blade against your throat," i threatened, flipping out my switch. he backed off, but some moron called the fuzz, & i got like a week in jail. it wasn't realy all that bad, dally was in there 2, cause he stole a car or sumthin(this was all like 2 weeks ago). surprisingly, i still have my job @ the dingo, i just had 2 change my name tag from "rose" to "rosy", so people wouldn't b terrified w/ me as their waitress. & 3rd bit of news....i kinda don't wanna say this, but.....i learned a little fact about ponyboy that's not so good for me. about a week ago, i was walkin past the kitchen in the curtis' house, when i heard pony say, "johnny? .....what was it like.....having sex w/ rosy?" that shocked the hell out of me, so i decided to listen into the conversation. here's how it went:
johnny: *blushes a little bit* um....honestly....it was pretty nice.
ponyboy: oh....i remember soda was comparing sandy & katie once...he said he like katie better cause sandy tasted like cherries, but katie tasted like pepsi. *laugh*
johnny: where r u getting @ w/ this? you wanna know what rose tastes like to me?
ponyboy: maybe...
johnny: alrite, i know what you're getting at, but for now, i'll humor you. she tastes like chocolate, w/ a little bit of smoke mixed in, cause of her smoking. she says i taste like full-on-smoky caramel. *laugh* now, answr MY question: ...do you want to taste her? (i had 2 cover my mouth 2 keep from gasping or screaming)
*pony looks @ the ground & shuffles his feet*
johnny: don't do that looking-down thing! you can't hide the truth, i see the way you look @ her, the way your gray-green eyes meet her chocolate-night eyes, the way you bit your lip when two-bit confronted her & i, because you were trying 2 hold back tears, because the girl you loved just had sex with your best friend, who's ME! ...you did the same thing @ my wedding, because the girl you loved could then never be yours, because she was, & still is, loving your best friend: ME!
*tears start 2 build up in pony's eyes*
johnny: the gang knows, pony. you can't lie, you can't hide, because we all know the truth that i just found out rite now: you're in love with ROSE! ...my WIFE, pony! don't you know that its WRONG?! its as wrong as if you were in love w/ ME!
*pony's silently crying*
johnny: ....if i had known...back 5 months ago, when she moved in....you've loved her since then, haven't you?
ponyboy: *nod*
johnny: if i had known.....if i had known, i would've given her 2 you.
*pony looks up shocked, still crying*
johnny: now that i know, tell me the truth: what do you think of rosy, on the outside?
ponyboy: ......she's pretty damn sexy. every day, every night, i wish i was you, with her.
i had 2 leave here, cause they were leaving the kitchen. so that's the real story: my husband's best friend is unconditionaly in love w/ me. so, that's all the news. today is johnny's 17th b-day, & we're celebrating tonight. i don't realy wanna go, tho....ive been avoiding pony since the secret got out. i mean, after hearing mine & my husband's best friend say im "pretty damn sexy", i just can't look him in the face. ....im gonna get off here, I need to think....what are we gonna do, johnny?

not much new

heya im back. johnny & i got back from our honeymoon on wednesday, but we've been so busy w/ the gang that i haven't had a chance 2 blog! anyways, johnny started his part-time job @ the DX, rite aftr we got bac. he works @ the counter, & sometimes helps steve w/ the cars. actualy, sumthin realy funny happened @ the DX on saturday....so, i had 2 go up 2 the school for this choir rehearsal thing(im in choir & drama), & i got out @ about 11, & i decided 2 go 2 the DX & visit johnny, steve, & soda. so when I got there, soda was @ the counter, surrounded by A LOT of grls, & johnny was by the soda machine(the damn thing keeps breakin, so soda taught johnny how 2 fix it), tryin 2 fix it, but there's like 5 grls by him! soda looked up, & yelled, "rosy-o! wat's hangin'?" then he noticed johnny was still workin on the pepsi-machine thing, so he yelled, "johnnycake! ur super-important person has arrived! fix the machine later!", throwin a magazine @ johnny.....which hit johnny in the head & caused him 2 spill soda(which realy looked like green sludge) on the floor. i cracked up, i couldn't help it, soda was bein so funny! "wat the hell, soda?! i was tryin 2 fix this, no thx 2.....rose!" johnny yelled, jumpin ovr the counter & giving me a giant hug. the grls looked real confused, & 1 said, "johnny? who's SHE?" i almost choked tryin not 2 laugh. these grls liked johnny?! i thought all the grls went 4 soda! "o, this is rose, she's my.....wife," johnny responded, hookin his arm around my waist. "oh....you're married? oh....ok...lets go, tami..." the grl trudged out very disappointed-like, mutterin 2 her friend, "i can't believe he's married.....he was such a hottie, 2....weird, she kinda looks like him...." aftr they left, i looked @ johnny, & we burst out laffing. "hey, johnny, didja figure out the prob w/ the machine?" soda hopped ovr the counter to escape his crowd of grls. "no....but rose is good w/ machines & fixin stuff, couldja help out, rose?" johnny asked me(its true, btw, im crazy good @ fixin stuff, i 1nce had a little job as a handygrl). "yeah, i guess," i responded, to which soda yelled, "yeah! we got hats 2 help!" ("hats" is my nickname w/ soda & two-bit, cuz i always wear this black biker hat, its like how johnny always wears his jacket) so, i fixed the machine, & johnny said, "awesome, may-b u should work here instead of @ the dingo." so, that's the end of the story, othr than that, not n e thing else happenin. bye-a!

honeymoon in hawaii

well im back, with another new name: mrs. rose violet cade! that's right, the wedding went perfectly, i am now johnny's wife. where should i start? probly the wedding...so, around evening, i went to the curtis' house, & i think the guys took johnny to my parent's house, cause kitkat made johnnycake stay the night with pony, cause she didn't want him to see me until the wedding! haha! bubblegum did my makeup, & kitkat got me in my dress before doin my hair. the dress was strapless, with sparkling rhinestones on top, & for the skirt, it was just layers overlapping, creating this beautiful fairy-tale wedding dress. kitkat also got me these gorgeous heels that matched the dress, with a white bow on each shoe. after gettin me all ready, hair & makeup & all, darry came over to take us in the pickup truck to the park by the church. when darry saw me, he got this surprised look on his face, then said, "you look great, rosy. kitkat & bubblegum did an awesome job." we rode to the park, & it was starting to get dark, so kitkat took me over to get my veil & tiara on before the procession started. she started attachin the veil to my tiara, & she said, "you nervous, rosy? after all, you're only 16, I kno loads of girls that would have never accepted the proposal, let alone get married to a penniless greaser." i was dumbstruck for a minute, then responded, "i couldn't be nervous even if i tried, kitkat. in fact, I could never be happier with my decision. finally, im goin to marry the love of my life, my soulmate, & im gona be with him forever after tonight. think about it, if you met the person you knew you wanted to spend eternity with, wouldn't you choose to marry him, despite challenges, because you would be with him forever?" she stopped & thought about that for a sec, then said, "yeah, you're right, rosy, i would. you sure are right about a lot of things for a 16-yr-old kid. you know, rosy....you look real pretty right now, no wonder johnny chose you. i realy think you guys were made for each other." she finished on that note as she put my tiara on & pulled the veil over my face. "alrite 'princess juliet', ready to marry your prince romeo?" "yup, never more ready than now!" i said, my eyes sparkling with happiness. kitkat & bubblegum led me to the procession, & as the wedding march played, i walked down the aisle, bouquet of white roses & carnations in hand. johnny was standing there with pony & darry, in a tux with a red flower in his lapel, his hair combed out of his eyes for once. ;) his big black eyes shone when he saw me, & i came to a stop facing johnny. darry began to read the vows. "dearly beloved, we are gathered here today..." then came the actual vows. "jonathon robert cade, do you take rose violet white to be your lawfully wedded wife, in sickness & in health, as long as you both shall live?" "i do," he responded, having never looked happier in his life. "& do you, rose violet white, take jonathon robert cade to be your lawfully wedded husband, in sickness & in health, as long as you both shall live?" "i-i do," i choked, realizing that i was cryin. "i pronounce this couple, husband & wife," darry concluded, & turnin us to face the crowd, said, "mr. & mrs. cade, everyone. you may kiss the bride!" johnny turned me to face him, & pressed his lips to mine, soft & sweet. everyone clapped, & as johnny led me to the fountain, the stars glistening off my dress & tiara, steve got the stereo, & began to play "tell me soon". we began to dance, swayin back & forth. johnny whispered in my ear as we danced, "you look beautiful, rose. ive never seen anyone like you, so stricken with beauty." "finally, we can be together forever. ...i love you, johnny cade. i always have, & i always will. always...." i trailed off as he kissed me again, whispering, "the one thing socs don't have & can't take away: love as strong as ours. funny, how we met, & look @ us now. " i giggled, rememberin that moment. "i think i'll sit on that pile of newspaper to watch the stars, seems like a good place. ...oh my gosh, its a guy! im sooo sorry, i didn't see you!" he smiled, carryin on the memory. "its cool. hey, haven't seen ya around, what's your name?" "rosalina, but i go by rosy." "rosy, that's a nice name, im johnny. you like watchin the stars?" "yeah, they're real pretty." "mind if i watch em with you, rosy?" "not @ all. you know, johnny, you dig okay. i think we're gonna be real close, real close." we reached the end of the memory as the song ended. "i sit on a guy in the lot, & 3 months later, im marryin him! fate is strange sometimes," i said as we walked to a picnic table, thinkin of the odd way i had met my soulmate. "fate might be strange, but fate is what had us meet." "true..." then pony came over & said, "johnny, i know I'm your best man and all, but can i ditch the monkey suit tux now? im a greaser, not some stuck-up soc!" i laughed at pony's request, watchin him try to get his tie off. .....that's basicaly the wedding in a loophole, johnny & i are on our honeymoon in honolulu now. hawaii is super-pretty, sooo much different than tulsa! the hotel's like a zoo, there's PENGUINS in the lobby!!! well, i gotta go, im goin scuba divin with my newlywed husband. bye! p.s. i have good news: we now have 2 incomes in the cade household; besides my waitress/singer job, johnny just got a part-time job workin @ the DX with soda & steve! yay!

the last night

well tonight's the eve, its the last night. cause tomorrow, johnny & i are gona get married, & nothin will ever be the same. the gang, particularly pony, is crazy nervous. i know why pony's nervous, cause he's johnny's best man, but kitkat seems fine(she's my bridesmaid). darry's readin the vows, bubblegum's gonna be the flower girl, & soda, good old sodapop, said that he's gonna be the ring bearer, which is realy funny cause usualy, the ring bearer is like 5 or 6, but soda's about to turn 17! haha! i got to see my wedding dress, & it's just GORGEOUS(the guys won't let johnny read my blog since i say what my dress looks like)!!! it looks like it came out of a fairy tale, & for my veil, there's a tiara attached to the veil, so i put the tiara on, & the veil just goes over my face in the process. bubblegum said that "for my hair, it'll be curled, then pulled up in this gorgeous updo, with a few curls comin out of the updo to frame my face with the veil", which i forgot to mention, the veil has just HUNDREDS of little rhinestones coverin the back(not the part by my face). it's supposed to be like that, since the wedding's supposed to be @ night, under the stars, the light from the stars will catch onto the diamond necklace(my mother's, she's ok with the marriage now) & the rhinestones on my veil & dress. after the ceremony, since its just a little wedding, we'll go back to my house, & steve will play "tell me soon" for the traditional wedding dance between johnny & i, johnny & i will stuff cake into each other's faces, i'll throw my bouquet(a lot of my middle-class & greaser-girl friends are comin), johnny will throw my garter(he's super-embarrassed about that, & the gang will be the only guys there), & for our "honeymoon", my parents surprised johnny & i with two plane tickets, money, & hotel-suite passes to go to hawaii for 2 weeks! my dad has a friend who works in this fancy hotel in honolulu, so his friend pulled a few strings so his friend's daughter & her newlywed husband(a.k.a. me & johnny) can have a honeymoon. well, thats all the deets on the wedding, johnny & i already packed for the 2-week trip, & as soon as i get access to a computer @ the hotel, i'll talk all about my wedding!!! now, i gotta go & make dinner for johnny & i. i wonder what i'll make tonight...maybe breakfast for dinner, with eggs & bacon & toast...

confessions & beating

well its rosy, or as I should say, miss rose violet white! yup, i got my name legaly changed from rosalina violet white to rose violet white, & it'll be changed again in 2 days to rose violet cade! pony was askin me why i wanted to change my name to rose instead of rosalina. i told him that as ive mentioned b4, rosalina just sounded too fancy, too SOCY for a greaser girl. he still doesn't get it. oh well, johnny & i moved into our new house on wednesday! the day didn't end as nice as we thought, though. i walked into biology, my last class of the day(i have almost all my classes with johnny), & i got passed a note by this nice middle-class girl(since my dad's business took off about a month ago, im about middle-class now)while takin notes on cell reproduction or sumthin like that. it said, "so wats the plan on gettin our stuff 2 the house aftr school? -johnny" i wrote back, "my house 1st, then we'll go 2 urs if ur parents aren't home. we might have 2 tell them 2day tho.", & passed it. i got the note bac, but before i could read it, *swoosh*, it got taken out of my hand, & i looked up to see my biology teacher, mr.gomez. "ms.white, mr.cade, i would like to kno what is SO important that it couldn't wait until class is over. ...go on, tell the class what you 2 were discussing, or shall i read the note?" "um....um, we were....." johnny stuttered as mr.gomez interupted. "fine, i will read the note since mr.cade is incapable of telling the class,", & he started to read the note, but he stopped, & said, "you 2, stay after class. i need to have a word with you BOTH." all the color just drained from johnny's face. after class, we went up to his desk, & he said, "johnny, rosalina, i was reading that note, & there are 2 things i would like to ask the both of you. 1st, the 'house'," he said, with this grimace on his face. "this is a guess but...are you two living together? i know that you are not related, but i have heard other things that students have been discussing and.....they said that you two were engaged. is that true?" i glanced at johnny, who looked more terrified than ive ever seen him. i answered, "...yes, that rumor is true, johnny proposed to me a few weeks ago, & the wedding is supposed to be this sunday. we were discussing the house because our friends got us a house, & we were going to move in today." mr.gomez looked very shocked, & said, "very well, that is none of my business, so I won't pry anymore. but, the 2nd thing is that you, rosalina, said 'if your parents aren't home' & 'might have to tell them today'. is there something about johnny's parents that 1 of you would tell me?" johnny's dark eyes got real big & scared at that, NO ONE at the school needs to find out what they do to him. he shook his head franticaly, sayin, "NO, no, nothing is the problem." mr.gomez looked suspicious, then got this look like, 'you're hiding something', & said, "johnny, please take off your jacket." we stopped rite there, because we knew that it would blow our cover. you see, johnny got beat by his dad a week ago, & it wasn't SO bad, like hospital-bad, but he still has bruises all on his arms. johnny sighed, & took off his jacket. mr.gomez gasped, & I kno why: johnny had a large cut running down his arm from his elbow to his wrist, & his arms were decorated with bruises. the teacher couldn't speak, but finaly he said, "mr.cade, you may go, there's 1 more thing i need to ask ms.white." johnny bolted from the room, but i knew he wouldn't leave without me. "ms.white," he began, but i stopped him, sayin, "don't tell ANYONE what happens to johnny. *sigh* he's a wreck, anyone would be with parents like his. i remember 1nce our friend, ponyboy, said that there was only 3 things johnny wanted in life: for the gang to never stop bein there for him, for me to never stop lovin him, & for his parents to care about him. he will always have 2 of those 3 things in his life, but his parents will never stop & care about him. its sad....but don't feel pity for johnny or give him special treatment just cause you know about his parents. when we go get his stuff, & he tells his parents 'hey, not only have i had a grlfriend for 2 months, but we're gettin married on sunday, & im movin in with her today, so bye!', they'll beat him till he cries, & they'll probly beat me, too. ...but its a price to pay for stayin with my soulmate, no matter his flaws. .....just keep it to yourself, no one needs to know." & with that note, I left the classroom, & went home with johnnycake. we got my stuff & dropped it off @ our house. then we went to johnny's house. we got his stuff realy fast, but when we came downstairs to leave, there were his parents. "*gulp* uh, mom, dad?" johnny started, shakin more by the second. "this..this is rose, my..my grlfriend. um....i proposed to her 2 weeks ago, &...the wedding's this saturday. so...im movin out to..to live with her." .....i was rite. johnny's dad threw him against the wall, screamin curses @ his son. i couldn't watch, but I could hear: "rose..rosy, get out." i didn't have a chance, cause then johnny slumped to the floor, knocked out, blood runnin down his face from hittin the wall. johnny's parents advanced on me, & i was punched, kicked, slapped. johnny's mother slapped me repeatedly, sayin, "you're no bettr than him, you're just another worthless piece of shit! another damn piece of shit! did he steal our money to buy his princess her ring? DID HE?!?!" she shrieked, finaly hittin me so hard i could taste blood. i managed to say, "n..no....just...dont hurt...john..johnny...damn..damn drunk...", barely able to speak from the pain & the blood gatherin in my mouth from bein slapped. after callin his mom a damn drunk, she slapped me so hard, like a 1000 knives. i screamed from the pain, & i heard johnny yell, "GET...OFF...HER!!!" suddenly, I couldn't see or hear, & the world turned black. .........i woke up in the curtis' house, & i heard soda say, "johnny, rose just woke up." i could hear dally cursin, sayin, "its...its bad enough that johnny's folks beat him, but for them to beat rosy...." pony filled me in, & basicaly, they went to our house to see if johnny & i needed help, & when we weren't there, darry got worried & said, "we're goin to johnny's house, i have a bad feelin that they're there." they walked in, & they saw me lyin there, bruises all over my neck & slap marks covered with blood all over my face, blood comin from my mouth, & johnny sittin beside me, tear stains mingling with the bruises & cuts on his face, arms, everywhere. dally said, "johnny....kid, they DID NOT beat you 2..." then steve lost it, "what the HELL did they do, johnny?! what did those drunks do to hurt rosy SO DAMN BAD?! she doesn't deserve that, doesn't deserve bein BEAT by 2 DAMN PIECES OF SHIT!!!!!!" johnny just choked out, "they...hit...me....got....knocked......out....
slapped...her....screamed....called 'em.....damn....drunks.....passed....out...." in between sobs. they carried me to the curtis' house, & cleaned up the blood & everythin, then after a few hours, i woke up. the guys don't kno how im feelin ok enuff to type, but they let me & johnny go home. i calmed johnny down, cause he was cryin & sayin, "bad enough i get beat, but you.." its super-late, so im goin to bed, i think johnny turned in about an hr ago, idk. bye!

together forever

mmm, last nite will be 1 of my best memories, i just kno it. i was rite, johnny came in about 10 min after i posted last nite(& yes, we're movin into the new house on wednesday), & we were just layin on my bed, talkin & smokin. it was kinda funny, just sittin there & talkin like friends. so, i said, "it was real nice of the gang to get us that house." he just laid bac & closed his eyes. i took a long drag on my weed, just thinkin. he finaly turned to look @ me & said, "yeah, its perfect. .....i love you, rose. more than anything." "i know, i love you, too, johnnycake. more than anything." then he kissed me, not like he ever kissed me before. whenever he had kissed me before, it felt cautious, as if he was half-pullin away, but this time, it felt perfect, like he never wanted to stop, never pull away. i kissed him back, his lips moving with mine, his full, soft lips. it went on, & i began to think if we should go farther. i traced my hands down his stomach, stopping at the button on his jeans. he got an idea of what i was thinkin, & stopped for a second. he said, "rose? i-i don't know, maybe we shouldn't....." "don't worry, johnny. we belong together, forever. no one will know...." i waited, breathless as to what his answer would be. he finaly sighed, but it didn't sound like he was giving in, it sounded content, as if there was nowhere else in the world he wanted to be. "together, forever." he repeated, & proceeded to give me my answr by takin off his shirt & kissin me harder & faster than before. so the answer is yes, i thought, ...maybe its the wrong time, i know, but this is johnny, & i love him. ......i woke up this morning snuggled next to johnny, listening to his heartbeat as he slept. i saw that it was about time to get ready for school. funny, i lose my virginity, & the first thing i think the next morning is that its time for school. i shook johnny gently, & he sat up straight, sayin, "what? im tired & i wanna sleep." "good mornin, johnnycake. rise & shine, we're goin next door for breakfast, if you get ready fast." he looked over, & smiled when he saw me, despite the dark shadows underneath his eyes from lack of sleep. "hey, rose. have i tell you yet today that i love you?" i laughed at his drowsy comment, replying, "why no, not yet silly, you just woke up." "ok then, i want you to know that i love you very much, & by the way: good morning!" he replied, his dark eyes sparkling with delight. he kissed me, soft and sweet, sayin, "there's your good morning kiss. do i get one?" i laughed, never having seen him so happy & light, makin comments that didn't sound @ all like him. i gave him a kiss back, replying, "there's yours. now, how 'bout we get..." i stopped, & johnny looked puzzled as my face went from cheerful to frightened. "i hear footsteps coming up the stairs....shit!" i said. "my mom's comin! dammit, she's paranoid! quick, put your jeans back on & sneak out the window, i'll signal you when she's gone!" johnny dashed out of my bed like there was a fire, & did what i had asked him 2 do. my mom came in as soon as he had gotten out of sight, glaring. "oh, hi mom." i said, eager for her to leave so johnny could come back. "i was just checking on you, making sure you were getting ready.....is that boy in here? he seems to like your company so much that i never know if he leaves." my mom said coldly. "no, im goin next door for breakfast, he's meeting me there." "oh really, then what's that?" she retorted, pointing @ a handle of some sort on the floor. i picked it up & my heart sank: it was johnny's switchblade. "oh, this is his, he came over yesterday to study, & i think it fell out of his pocket." i said, lying so fluently i almost believed it myself. "well alrite then, since you're going next door for breakfast, have a good day @ school." she said, & immediatly left my room. johnny crawled back through my window, & said, "man, that could've been bad if we got caught, she doesn't like me much already." "never mind her, she's gone. now, where were we?" johnny's eyes lit up again, & said, "well, i dunno, so lets start over, shall we?" he gave me another kiss as he wrapped his arm around my waist, pulling me closer. "good morning!" we laughed together, our voices mingling to create this beautiful sound. we got ready & went next door, laughing & talking as we came in. everybody got real quiet when we came in, & suddenly two-bit yelled, "well, did you two have fun last night? sure sounded like it!" pony bit his lip & sat down, & soda had this look like, "shut up, man, just leave 'em alone". i spoke up & retorted, "we weren't doin nuthin, two-bit mathews, so you can just shut ur trap, alrite?" steve spoke up, sayin, "you're lyin, rosy, & we all know cause we could hear ya'll last night, these walls aren't very thick, & neither is your window. havin' fun last nite?", grinning like he knew this big secret. johnny's face turned bright red, & im guessin mine did too, cause darry said, "just leave 'em alone, two-bit, & you too, little man, you'll give johnny a heart attack." everyone went back to whatever they were doin, & that was that. pony, johnny, & i walked to school together(johnny's been goin to school more since we started dating, probly so he can see me more), & it was super-awkward. other than that, there's nuthin else i realy got to say, so im gonna go hang out with pony, maybe catch a movie or sumthin. later!

good & bad surprises

hiya its rosy. johnny & i got a nice surprise today, cause I came home from the hospital today. the tests were all fine, but the doctor was under rules, & I couldn't be released so quickly after JUST gettin my memory back, so i was told since the tests said my head was fine, i could leave the next day. johnny spent the night @ the hospital, @ 1st the doctor wouldn't allow it. At about 11, the nurse came in, & seeing johnny, said, "young man, you need to leave. i kno u spend the whole day in here with rosalina, but she needs some sleep." she let him stay though, after i begged her, sayin, "please let him stay, he has nowhere else 2 go, & nowhere else he wants to be than with me. please?" hehe that works everytime. but the nice surprise, or the 2 nice surprises, was that when johnny took me 2 ponyboy's house, the gang surprised us by sayin that our wedding was NOT goin 2 be february 16, that they moved it 2 feb. 1! soda explained it as, "so much bad stuff has happened 2 you guys, so we thought that b4 n e else happens, you guys should have your wedding, so you can just stop worrying about bein jumped cause an ex-soc got engaged 2 a greaser, & finaly just get married." so im gonna be Mrs. Rose Violet Cade in 6 days.(im gettin my name legally changed to rose aftr the wedding) & to top it off, the gang had anothr surprise: they got us a house!!! its this small-sized house, with a kitchen, living room, bedroom, & bathroom, just big enough for 2. its alredy got furniture, too. the kitchen's got a stove & everything, there's a tv & couch in the living room, & the biggest surprise: the bedroom is decorated to look like the night sky, "its as if you two are back in the lot, just like that 1st night", as pony described it. there's a catch, though: bein greasers, the gang doesn't have NEARLY enough money to buy the house, but the man sellin the house was so nice(after hearin the situation that johnny & i were in, of course), that he decided that we could pay him $5 every month 4 rent, instead of just payin off the house. so johnny & i r movin into the house in a couple of days, probly on wednesday. its perfect, i wouldn't trade the house for the world. ponyboy brought up a MAJOR problem when we were goin to his house: JOHNNY'S PARENTS. as soon as he said that, everything went dead silent, & johnny's face went pale instantly. dal said, "dammit, ponyboy, johnny just got over rosy bein in the hospital, & now you gotta give him more worries, dontcha?" its good that he brought that up, though, none of us thought of that. johnny's parents will literaly KILL him if they figure out, not only has he had a girlfriend for 2 months, almost 3, but that he proposed to her, he got married, & that he's moving out to live with her. they can't find out, they just can't. i can't even begin to think about what his mom would do, let alone his dad. if they beat him for marrying me, i will single-handedly kill them, no doubt. i will. well, im goin to sleep, but i know johnny will be in my room in like 10 min, so i might not. bye!

back

hey its rosy, believe it or not. yes, my memory is BACK, baby! i remember everything, the fight, bein brought 2 the hospital, everything. im actualy still in the hospital, the doctor wants to do tests on me to make sure i don't have n e brain damage, but he said that he's pretty sure that i'll be just fine. that was pure torture, just lyin there every day, with an empty head, not able 2 remember the person who gives me anothr reason to live every day. johnny came in 2day, sayin, "rose, i don't kno wat we're gonna do, its been ovr a week." we were talkin(i still had an empty head @ the time), & when he was gona leave, he said, "no matter wat, rose, i will love you, nothin will destroy my love 4 you, cause i will always remember the 1st nite, the nite i met you, when we watched the stars 2gether, & i will always remember wat u told me. 'johnny cade, i think im gonna love you forever, even when we're gone from this earth, cause we'll b up there, in the stars we always watched as young lovers, lyin 2gether, never again alone. i will love you for all eternity.' ....i love you, my rose, even in the stars." then he gave me a kiss on my forehead, just like he did that nite 2 months ago, & turned to leave. that just made sumthin in my head click, & as he started 2 leave, i said, "johnny cade, i love you more than juliet ever loved romeo, more than the number of stars in the night sky.", repeatin the words he used to propose to me. "ROSE! you're back! your memory's back!" he yelled. the whole gang came in, watchin him cry tears of joy as we embraced, finaly together @ last. so, that's it in a loophole, the doctor's comin in 5 min 2 do the tests, & he said if im all clear, then i can leave ASAP. its wonderful, kitkat & bubblegum have gotten a tux & a wedding dress, they've gotten a place, they've almost completely finished planning the wedding. they'll show me the dress as soon as i get out of this depressing hospital! i can't be depressed n e more, tho, im on top of the world, nothin can change that. i gotta go, johnny's campin out in my hospital room again, & I gotta wake him up. bye!

not sorry

hey its ponyboy. im pretty much the only person who's talkin about rosy's condition, cause johnny's just too depressed. her condition's gettin better, but she doesn't remember johnny more than she did the day she woke up. its seriously heart-breakin 2 watch, especialy yestrday's visit. he's comin 2 see her, even tho it kills him, i kno it does. i can see it in johnnycake's face. yesterday, both of us went 2 see her. johnny told her all these memories of them together, he recited the poem that she loves(Nothing Gold Can Stay), & he sang her(this is her nickname 4 it)"their song", "tell me soon" by rooney. she said once that it was written for them because it says,"tell me you love me, it's all I wanna hear, from you, tell me soon". johnny said that that's all he realy wants now, to hear rosy tell him she loves him, more than juliet loved romeo, just like she used to. he did all that in hopes that it would bring bac her memory...but she said that she still couldn't remember. After that.....here's wat was said:
johnny: "what's gonna happen if your memory never comes back? (he sees rosy just staring @ him, but he can tell how she's feelin by lookin into her eyes) rose, what's wrong?"
rosy: "everything. I KNO that i kno who you are, I KNO that our love was stronger than anything, but i only kno that cause of what ive been told by u. i....it feels like....like ive been gone for a long time. i kno memories were in my head, but theyre gone. (tears start to well up in her eyes) i don't want an empty head for the rest of my life! im only 16, i don't want my life wiped out, my memories, my HOPE! how can i have hope, have faith, if i can't even remember the person who made my life worth LIVING?! you told me that we couldn't live w/o each other, if one of us left this earth, the other would follow. we're soulmates, you can't live w/o your soulmate, cause as the name says, its like they share a part of you, of your soul. if i don't get my memory bac, you'll kill yourself, & don't lie, you said that 2 pony in the hallway! & its all that damn soc's fault! they've destroyed my life, erased my memories, caused me pain, & they don't CARE! my life has been shattered cause of them, & they feel no remorse, no lament! ....they're not sorry. WHY AREN'T THEY SORRY FOR KILLING ME?!?!?!?!"
after sayin that, she just buried her head into her hands & cried. johnny cried w/ her, i kno that in sayin that, she expressed all the pain he's feelin, the remorse, the guilt, the desperate begging to kno y they don't care about what they've done. she's rite, about the soulmate thing, how its like they each have a part of each other inside them. she feels what he feels, she thinks what he thinks, if one is sad, they cry together. i've never heard her say something so deep like that, never. it made me think: y DO the socs not care? y DO the socs not feel anything? ...a question that can never be answered. its the question that johnny & rosy are desperately begging 4 an answer: Why are you not sorry?

not so good

hey this is pony. rosy FINALLY woke up, & there's good news & bad news. good news: she remembers me & most everyone in the gang. bad news: ....she can't remember johnny. the doctor said its odd that she wouldn't remember the person who means the most to her, but she could mostly remember everyone else. she doesn't remember the fight, but she still remembers her hatred for the socs. dally likes that, how she can remember that the socs are enemies. it was so heart-breakin 2 see johnny talkin 2 her. she woke up slowly, & since he literaly nevr leaves, he saw her, & this is how it went:
johnny: rose! rosy, how do you feel?
rosy: i feel realy bad. my head hurts, where am i?
johnny: in the hospital, love, bob hurt you badly.
rosy: ok.....one question.
johnny: what is it, rose?
rosy: .....who are you?
johnny just burst in to tears hearin that. he was sayin, "im johnny, rose! you don't remember me?! don't you remember, you're my girlfriend! i asked you 2 marry me! you said yes! i love you, how can you not remember that?! WHY CAN'T YOU REMEMBER THAT?!?!" aftr that, he just ran out & sat in the hallway, sobbing. i sat w/ him, & every few min., he would say while cryin,"if her memory doesn't come bac, she won't remember me EVER! i love her more than the world! i want my ROSE bac, not this grl, lyin there in the hospital! not this grl who calls YOU by name, but can't remember the person who loves her so much he can't live w/o her!!! im not real religious, but i would give ANYTHING for her! i just want god to give me my rose bac!" johnny won't come bac 2 see rosy, but soda said maybe johnny needs to do things that reminds her of him. i dunno, its so sad. & its all those damn socs' fault. if they didn't jump johnny & rosy, rosy wouldn't have cut bob, bob wouldn't have slammed her head into that wall, she wouldn't be in the hospital, & she wouldn't have forgotten johnny. i kno the gang wants revenge, & they're gonna give it. especialy johnny, he's not the vengeful type, but i kno he'll do ANYTHING to avenge rosy. they hurt the person that he can't live without, & he'll kill them all bare-handed if he has 2, if it'll avenge the loss of rosy. i gotta go, rosy's callin 4 me. :'(

jumped

hey this is actualy ponyboy. um rosy can't post....aw, i can't put it off. you all kno how rosy said she & johnny were goin 4 a walk 3 days ago? ........they got jumped by bob & some othr socs. they didn't hurt johnny as bad as last time, he just has some cuts & bruises. but....bob got rosy real bad. oh here's johnny i'll let him type. hey its johnny. im not real bad off, i got a lot of cuts on my arms & stuff, but im ok. here's wat happened: rose & i were takin a walk, as she said 3 days ago. we got jumped by that guy rose used 2 date, bob, & a bunch of othr socs. i remembr they threw me down, there was bob & 3 othrs. the 3 pinned me down & started punching me & tryin 2 get me w/ a blade. but bob said, "you 3, deal w/ that trash. i have a score w/ miss rosy the ex-socy." then rose had this terrified look on her face, & bob was all like, "so, heard ur gonna marry that filthy greaser. wat, so you ditch me to marry that filthy trash?" my switch fell out of my pocket, & rose picked it up. i kno now if she had 2 use it, she would. she said, "i was nevr happy w/ you, bob, & i nevr would be, even i stayed a soc. if u hurt him beyond last time, i swear, i will kill you, & it'll be so fast, you won't have time to scream. im thru, you dirty son of a b****." & she lunged @ him, & gave him a giant gash thru his shoulder. i kno that was a big mistake. he...he grabbed her by the neck, & slammed her head into the alley wall behind her. it made this big crack, & I knew she was knocked out, i saw her eyes roll bac into her head, & she collapsed. bob took my switch, & i knew he was gonna kill her. luckily, i don't kno how, but i got the othr guys off me, & i grabbed bob from behind, & started choking him, while screaming for the guys. the gang heard me, & when they saw rose, they just blew up, cause rosy's like everyone's sister. pony went crazy, he started attacking bob, screamin, "YOU DON'T TOUCH HER!!!!!!" i was just in shock ovr the whole thing. the socs ran off, with bob yellin, "i'll get you, filthy greasers!!! next time, she'll be alone! Next time, i'll kill your precious rose!!!" pony, soda, even dally, EVERYONE went nuts, yellin, "Rosy! Rosy! ROSY, WAKE UP! ROOOSY!" there was blood all over, still comin from her head. when they saw that, they were screamin, "darry, call 911 NOW! get an ambulance, rosy's DYING!!!" we got her to the hospital, & darry called the police to tell them about the assault. the socs, me, & maybe rose, if she recovers, have 2 appear in court next friday, cause me & the gang r pressin charges. rose has been in the hospital since then, actualy that's where i am, rosy's nurse is lettin me use the computer. i haven't left the hospital @ all, i spend every minute in her hospital room. she hasn't woken up since that nite. the doctor says that "she'll live, no doubt, but her head got slammed pretty hard, so there's a large chance that she will have amnesia for who knos how long, or her brain could've been damaged." i feel horrible, i kno its my fault. if i didn't propose, then we wouldn't be engaged, & the socs wouldn't have jumped her for that reason. pony's just a wreck, he's here almost as much as me, & every time he sees rose just lying there, with this big bloody bandage around her head, he just starts bawling. ive been crying too. everyone has, darry, soda, kitkat, bubblegum, two-bit, even steve & dally. darry called rosy's parents, too, to tell them. they came bac that same nite. they were just like, "where is our daughter?!?!" then they saw me. her mom was like, "YOU! You're that boy who always comes over to see rosalina! YOU caused this by seeing her!!!" her dad said, "now now bridget, it isn't this young man's fault, its the fault of the kids who attacked them. ah, johnny, isn't it? *sigh* my little rosy loves you dearly, with all her heart." but then he took me aside & said. "when darrel told us about the assault on you & rose, he also told me, only me, not her mother, that you had proposed to my daughter, & she accepted. *sigh* he said that she loves you more than the universe can hold, or as you said, 'more than romeo could have ever loved juliet'. .....being a father, this is hard for me to say, but i can see, from your actions, that you love her the same. therefore, i give you 2 my blessing. love her as she loves you. make her life wonderful." it was cool, sort of. i gotta go, i need to see rose. me & the gang will come on here to talk about rose's condition, say if she's gettin better. k, now im gone.

party=success!

hey i'm bac & the party was awesome! johnny announced the engagement, & actually, we're goin on a walk, so later! ;)

a ring & some words...thats all it took

well, its my 16th birthday today. its also the day i got the biggest surprise of my life!!! well, today started out pretty normal, my 'rents called me & told me happy birthday, we love you, etc., etc. so i went into the kitchen in pony's house, & the whole gang's there, with this big CAKE. i think kitkat & bubblegum made it, kitkat had flour on her face. but everyone sang me happy birthday. it was pretty cool. but around noon johnny wanted me to go to the lot with him, so i did. & by the way, this will tie it in: earlier this week, johnny wanted to know what my birthstone was(its garnet). so we went to the lot, even tho its like the middle of the day, & he said, "i got you a present", which confused me, cause he alredy gave me a present, that money he saved up so i could get earrings. here's the shock: johnny gets down on 1 knee, & opens up this lil box, & there's this little garnet ring, with tiny diamonds on each side. & i quote from johnny: "rose, i love you more than romeo could have ever loved juliet. my love for you is greater than the number of stars in the sky that we see every night. will you love me as i love you, & spend eternity with me as my wife? will you marry me?" i couldn't speak!!! i'm still in partial shock, i can't believe it! so, i start crying(tears of joy, of course), & i respond(which we both kinda sound like some old romance movie), "johnny cade, you love me so deeply, & by some miracle, i love you the same, more than my own life. i do!" then, you all kno, happy ending, kisses, etc. but here's the catch: then we hear cheering! everyone in the gang followed us! turns out that about 2 weeks ago, johnny told the guys that he decided to propose to me on my 16th b-day, but he didn't have anything. he didn't have a ring, didn't kno what to do, & so on. so, the guys saved up EVERYTHING to help him buy the ring, & pony helped him come up with the idea to take me to the lot & say the whole romeo & juliet proposal. kitkat & bubblegum were MAD, tho, cause they didn't kno. they were all like,"y didn't you tell us that johnny was proposing to rosy, soda?!" so, i'm 16, & i just got engaged 3 hours ago. we don't kno anything about the wedding yet, but there's 3 problems: 1, there's goin to be hell goin on @ school once the socs figure out that rose, bob's ex-girlfriend, just got engaged to a greaser. 2, johnnycake & i don't kno what we're gonna do after the wedding. we're gonna live together(DUH), but my waitress job isn't very rich, & i dunno how johnny's gonna get a job to support us @ 16. & 3, MY PARENTS. they're gonna hit the roof once they find out that when they were gone, their barely-16 yr old daughter, who's still in high school, is getting married!! to a greaser with no job, no home, & no money! its gonna be hard, but i think johnny & i will be ok. well, i should go, steve is REDOING the party tonite a bit, so now its "rosy's birthday party/rosy's engagement party". good grief! besides, kitkat & bubblegum INSIST on planning the wedding, which they've decided should be on february 16th, a month from today. i'm helping them, so i'm gonna work overtime @ the dingo to get money for the wedding. bye! (i can't believe i'm getting married!!!)

its like a circus...

ok, so we finished gettin my place fixed up for the big party tomorrow nite. two-bit got a bit carried away with me getting all the music & the stereo ready, & decided to have a kareoke contest(the reward was a pack of smokes, & a free keg of beer. go figure.). ALL of us had to sing, even pony & johnny, but kitkat & bubblegum were pretty good. it was kinda funny. i sang "circus" & "unusual you" by britney spears, & by no surprise, i got the smokes & drinks. i wonder where two-bit's goin w/ this, he knos im the only 1 of the gang that can sing. i hope its not some giant prank, i can tell. i might have used to be a blonde(when i was a soc, I dyed it black right before movin), but im not frickin clueless, i can tell when two-bit's comin up w/ this shit. besides that, not much else, just waitin for my 'rents to come bac so we can go on a road trip. oh, johnny & i had to take semester finals this week. i did pretty good, but johnny kinda failed, so the teacher wants me to tutor him. i dunno y me, probly cause im his girlfriend & i get good grades. well, thats it, ill blog about the party if im not too busy(oh wait, i never do anything, thats why i blog so much). p.s. i found this website that you can make a manga version of urself, called faceyourmanga.com. ill tell the guys about it, but i made my own avatar. its me perfectly, along w/ my new double-piercing in my left ear(johnny's b-day present: money so i could get the dbl-piercing), & a weed(i smoke probly as much as johnny, not as much as pony, but my 'rents say no, it'll mess up my singin voice. do i act like i realy care?

birthday bash comin up!

k so you know how i said that my parents were leavin for 2 weeks, & that i was stayin w/ darry, soda, pony, kitkat, & bubblegum, rite? well steve said that he was gonna throw a party @ my house(cause its actuly kinda big for a greaser grl's house), but he didn't have a real reason or sumthin. so, they decided, since my 16th bday is this friday, 3 days away, that steve was gonna have a "birthday party" for me. i kno he's just usin the b-day thing as an excuse to have a party, but i don't care. johnnycake said that he would turn it into a b-day party, he & pony, & that was nice. i wonder how its gonna turn out? i'll blog about it the day after, rite now, steve & soda need help settin up the place(they're settin it up now cause im not livin in my house, im livin next door), & they want my input on the music, surprisingly. p.s. two-bit's been acting mighty funny lately, like he's up to sumthin. i think i heard dally say that he was bringin a keg or a lot of beer or sum shit like that. 'sure hope he doesn't do anything, cause if he messes up my party(soda & steve r callin it my party since its my house), ill beat him till he cries. i mean it. later.

hangin out @ the movies

hey its rosy again. last nite was kinda ok, i guess. i went over next door & everyone was goin crazy, like i thought. so johnnys finally like "hey, rosy, pony, you guys wanna go to the movies?" we said sure but darry made ponyboy finish his homework 1st. pony sure was whiny about that, i don't even whine that much, & im 2nd youngest(im turnin 16 on the 16th). so we went to the nightly double, & it was kinda awkward, cause johnny had his arm around me & all, & pony looked like he was the extra or sumthin. some socs came by us, & 1 thing that you all should kno: socs recognize me instantly as an ex-soc, even tho i never looked like 1-my hair's jet-black like johnny's, cut straight at my shoulders, & my eyes are deep blue-. & these socs came by & one's like "rose? watcha doin hangin w/ that trash? you looked great with bob." now johnny got beat up badly by bob once, & he doesnt like rememberin that I used to date him. so these socs startin sayin "wat you think you can steal bobs girl, you filthy greaser?" & all this other crap, so we got outta there. pony had to go home before darry got mad, & my parents didnt kno that I snuck out, so johnny & i went to the lot. we were just layin there, & we started talkin. heres how it went:
johnny: 'stars sure are pretty tonite.
me: yeah, I guess..*shivers*
johnny: you cold, rose?
me: a little.
*johnny hands me his jacket*
me: thanks johnnycake.
johnny: so you kno those socs @ the movies?
me: umm yeah kinda. im sorry they said that to you, i wouldve told them to stop but they wouldnt stop, i kno. Im just anothr filthy grease to them now.
johnny: woah wat time is it?
me: i dunno, my parents dont kno I snuck out, so im good.
then i saw a couple of tears on johnnys face, next thing i knew, he was sobbing into my shoulder, & i was askin him wat happened. turns out his parents beat him really badly yesterday, & it scared him sumthin awful. so i kinda spent the nite comforting him, kissin him & tellin him it was gonna be ok. the bad thing is we both fell asleep, & when i tried to sneak bac in my room...my parents were there. guess whos confined to their room for a week? it would be worse if they knew where i was. "oh, im sorry, i was in the lot with my boyfriend the entire nite, who you don't kno, who never goes home cause his parents abuse him." THAT would go over well. oh well, they "locked my window", but i can pick a lock, & besides, they're leavin for 2 weeks on vacation. i can either stay alone or with the curtis's. i chose to stay next door, their couch is comfy. i gotta go, the 'rents are leavin. it wont hurt em not to kno that steve plans to throw a party in my house. haha! p.s. darry said that after my 'rents come back, we(darry, soda, pony, kitkat, bubblegum, johnny, me, steve, dally, rusty james, & two-bit)can go on a road trip from tulsa to maybe new york or flordia or sumthin. that would rock! road trip!!! but would we all fit in the van?

Hi Everyone

Hi, everybody! I understand whoever's reading this has NO clue who I am, so I'll say some things about myself. As you all could probably tell, I'm Johnny's girlfriend. My full name is Rosalina Violet White, but everybody calls me Rosy, & when I say everybody, I mean EVERYBODY on the East & West Side of town. You see, I have an...INTERESTING background. Um....I was a Soc. My parents had loads of money, & anything I wanted, I got(being a Soc also explains the big, long, fancy full name...I like Rosy White MUCH better!). Cherry Valance was my best friend, &,(I regret this now)I was Bob Sheldon's girlfriend. The Greasers hated me, no surprise there. Dally even jumped me once!! It was terrifying!!! But 1 day, I came home from school(I'm a straight-A student), & Dad told me that the bank where all our money was kept got robbed, & we were now penniless. We sold our house, & we moved to the East Side, & I went from Soc to Grease in 1 day. But actually, I moved rite next door to Darry, Soda, Pony, KitKat, & BubbleGum. & that's pretty much the story of my turn from Soc to Greaser. I actually met my sweetie Johnnycake that same night. I went to the lot, & I saw a pile of newspaper, & I decided to lay there to watch the stars. Turns out, though, I laid on SOMEONE, & that someone is now the love of my life, Johnny Cade. We've been together ever since. (That was also about 2 months ago.) Crazy, isn't it? I go to school with Ponyboy & Johnny, but I'm in all of johnny 's classes. I work as a waitress @ The Dingo on the weekends, & my nicknames are Rosy the Socy(now Rosy the Ex-Socy, used by Bob), Rose, Violet(I HATE bein called by violet!), & Peach(or Peachy). Two-Bit started callin me peach whenevr I work @ the dingo, I have NO idea why he does, its anothr two-bit thing. Well, I'm gonna go, I'm goin next door, its sounds like fun!.....if you count fun as two-bit goin crazy cause he's drunk, steve horking down chocolate cake, dally leavin to go steal a car or somethin(& get jailed for it, surprise surprise), soda tryin to kill two-bit for smashing somethin, ponyboy yellin cuz he's got homework to do, darry tryin to calm everyone down, kitkat & bubblegum goin crazy like two-bit, & johnny just sitting there, bein quiet. its always the same. later.